Pastor’s wife Mica Miller is seen in heart-wrenching new video detailing her struggle before her shock death

The wife of a pastor who took her own life is seen in new video detailing her struggles before her death.

Mica Miller, 30, was found dead at Lumbee River State Park in North Carolina on April 27 from a self inflicted gunshot wound.

Her death came days after serving her husband John Paul Miller, 44, with divorce papers. 

The pastor has been accused of grooming her for years before they wed and of committing her to a hospital in order to steal her car, according to court documents.

Footage has now emerged showing Miller seemingly addressing close friends and family, alluding to her struggles before her death. 

In the video, she can be heard saying: ‘I’ve had to keep my circle small the past couple of weeks.

‘I’m going through a lot and it’s hard, and it’s my cross to bear. It is the thing that God has put in my life to deal with. 

‘I don’t want to bring a lot of people into it. When your world is shook up you need to take a pause, I can only pray that more people will take a pause. 

‘I’m trying to get my priorities straight right now, and that is making sure that my heart doesn’t have any unforgiveness, bitterness, resentment. 

‘Just forgiveness, and hope for the future, and peace because you can’t put a price on peace.

‘Thank you for all your prayers and support, know that I have to keep my circle really small just now. This is the best way I know how.’

In the days after her death, her friends and family held a rally calling for ‘justice for Mica’ outside the Solid Rock Church where Pastor Miller works.

The pastor stunned his congregants last week when, after a service in which he had laughed and appeared entirely at ease, he announced that his wife had died.

Miller, who has a criminal record including multiple counts of aggravated assault and battery to which he pleaded guilty, told his congregation that her death was ‘self-induced.’

‘You all know she wasn’t well mentally and that she needed her medicine and it was hard to get to her,’ he said.

Prior to making the announcement, he asked his flock to stand and instructed them to, ‘leave church quietly and don’t talk about the announcement here in the building.’

Weeks before her passing, she shared a video speaking about abuse within marriage as claims emerge she was being harassed and was ‘afraid for her life’. 

She said: ‘Today my heart’s a little heavy. I’ve had lots of women that have reached out to me about situations of abuse, and I just want to tell you what a lot of people have told me lately, because I think I forgot.

‘But you are the bride of Christ before anybody else’s, male or female, it doesn’t matter what gender you are, abuse is abuse.’

Court records hint at the tumult within the marriage with Mica first filing for divorce back in October 2023 before withdrawing the filing February 12.

Later that same month Miller filed against his wife for Separate Support and Maintenance in a motion withdrawn March 11.

But on April 15, just 12 days before she was found dead, Mica filed once more and, according to friends, also sought a no contact order against her husband. 

A police reported obtained by DailyMail.com shows that Miller also contacted officers accusing her husband of sharing an indecent photo of herself on a Facebook group called ‘big boobs and nice curves’. 

An obituary penned by him also described his wife as ‘a great stepmother, and an amazing wife and helpmate’ and portrayed her as his biggest cheerleader.

Miller had called authorities before taking her own life, telling them: ‘I’m about to kill myself and I just want my family to know where to find me’.

Family and friends have insisted that Miller did not take her own life, her sister Sierra Brown previously told DailyMail.com that ‘there’s still an open investigation’.

Friend Allicia Young, who is a member of the Solid Rock Church alongside her husband Kenn, said: ‘I absolutely do not believe that she took her own life.’ 

‘I absolutely do not believe that she took her own life because she was energetic and her faith in God was unwavering,’ Allicia said on Banfield.

‘She was always quick to encourage somebody else, including myself. We went to lunches together, we worked out together.’

Evidence released by Robeson County Sheriff’s Office as part of their investigation conclusively shows Miller plotting to end her life.

A still from a Ring doorbell shows her on her front porch at 11am on the day of her death.

Just over an hour later, a surveillance image shows her entering Dick’s Pawn Shop where she purchases a fire arm.

Shortly after, Miller’s black Honda was observed traveling on Highway 501 near Four Mile Rd., Conway, South Carolina on the way to the state park.

Once there she called 911 to provide instructions to a dispatcher on where her body could be found. 

Meanwhile a waitress claims Pastor Miller was sending her flirty messages while his wife planned to kill herself, including calling her ‘super hot’ and asking for ‘bikini pics.’

Pastor Miller has since been released of his ministerial functions at Solid Rock at Market Common Church in Myrtle Beach, South Carolina.